it has been a frustrating past few days.

i'm so over being sick. i missed out on all of the halloween festivities last weekend because of my stupid immune system and now i've missed another day of school today. ugh.

did i mention that i almost died yesterday? i didn't really, but that's besides the point. i had to get two fillings yesterday and it was so strange. they gave me all these numbing shots that made my mouth taste like coconut and i couldn't stop laughing. seriously, it was ridiculous. i was kind of messed up, leaving the dentist office. i couldn't feel the left side of my face all the way from my neck to my eyebrow and i felt like i was in a dream.

anyway, i've been home all day. i'm in a bunch of pain from all the dental work and i have a slight fever, but i'll live.

blehhhhhh.

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Time is going by so slowly and I'm loving every second.

Tennis season has come to a close. Our team by no means won, but we came in fourth out of eight teams at the AAC tournament and I'd say that's pretty good. I'm going to miss practice with all those girls. They're some of my favorite people! I've had some of the best times at tennis events. So many fits of crying laughter. I really am going to miss tennis.

But, it's only October!

When did time decide to slow down? Really, it feels like the year should be more than half-way over by now. I'm glad that senior year isn't flying by, no matter how many times I may claim to want the year to be over already. College will just have to wait a little while.

Speaking of college, when did applying become such a big ordeal? The application to UNC looks just like a bragging contest to me. It's taking forever to fill everything out! But, nonetheless, it's all very satisfying/exciting/sad at the same time. As much as I don't want to admit it, I know I'm going to miss Waynesville. I have a love/hate relationship with this place.

Anyway, things are going swimmingly over here. School is semi-stressful, but I expected as much. I'm not complaining. Well, except maybe about this chemistry research paper I'm procrastinating on.

The Pisgah-Tuscola game is tomorrow! Sources say we have the third biggest high school football rivalry in the country. That's pretty dang impressive.

I shouldn't have to put up with this.

I hate living in this house. My stepmother makes living miserable and it seems like no one believes me, save for my mom. I'm so sick of her condescending remarks regarding my weight. No one in this house is on my side. How is that fair? I'm basically always confined to my room because she takes over the living room. This household is moreso a dictatorship than it is a democracy.

She is the most ignorant, narrow-minded, complete and utter bitch I have ever been so unfortunate to come in contact with. And if she makes one more comment about gay people, I swear to god I'll scream every single thing I've ever held back at her until I'm blue in the face.

Only one more year and I'm gone from this godforsaken place.

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today > yesterday

enough said.

today

• ruined my ap calc grade and progress reports come out thursday. AWESOME.
• super stressed out rest of the day
• found out things in publications- pissed off more
• mrs. brookshire said our papers on lord of the flies have to be five pages long. they're due monday. i haven't even finished the book.
• mr. pressley couldn't help me with ap calc take home test after school. ughhh.
• waited for patrick. joey came up and talked to me. had a mini heart-to-heart. almost cried about four times.
• home for two hours before tennis. got nothing accomplished.
• got to tennis. my raquet is completely destroyed. cool.
• peace walk with alex and catherine around the lake
• got home and fell a little better, but not really
• glee!
• still don't understand problem on ap calc take home test

basically, it was a pretty horrible day.

"who do you think you are

running 'round leaving scars,

collecting a jar of hearts,

tearing love apart.

you're gonna catch a cold

from the ice inside your soul.

don't come back for me.

who do you think you are?"

i love my friends :)