Love is no exception to change.

a memory remains but a tiny spark

i really miss this.

I'm really starting to despise all of this frozen weather.

I was supposed to go to a french dinner tonight at the country club and I was going to taste escargot, but no.
My dad doesn't want me to risk it, because the roads
are supposed to get bad.

Apparently they were horrible this morning and that's why school was cancelled, but they look perfectly okay at the moment.

So frustrating.

"I'm with them because, despite everything, I still love them. And while you might walk in and find me punching a wall, it's only because I want to kiss their lips.

There's no revenge here.

Love doesn't hate back."

I can't let myself regret such selfishness

:)

hahahahahahahahahah!

so adorable/beautiful/stylish :)

“Some people say, you can’t fall in love with someone you don’t know. Too bad

I don’t believe it.” - Nick Jonas

"Maybe you don't know them like I do. Maybe it's vengeance and maybe it's love.
Maybe they're smiling at other people the way they used to smile at me.
Maybe they've grown tired of drinking light like water, late at night.

Or Maybe, they're just tired. You don't know them like I do."

I gladly welcome three of my favorite guys
back into my life with open arms :)

I will be in a full-out LOST mindset for
every Tuesday until the end of the season.

Welcome back, Charlie!

Tonight is all about "we miss you" (we miss you)

"we miss you" (we miss you),

tonight is all about "we miss you now."

The eighth grader in me is bawling her eyes out
like there's no tomorrow right now.

The present-day me is still pretty upset, too.

Rest In Peace, Fall Out Boy

:'(

It is 12:07 am, I most likely will have school tomorrow, and I am not remotely tired.

When I was little, my brother told me that it was impossible to think two things at the exact same time and for a while I tried so hard to prove it to myself that I could, in fact, think two things at once. I remember achieving this for not even a split second and thinking it was the most bizarre thing ever. But now, it's like my brain just won't stop thinking; my mind won't shut off. I keep thinking, and thinking, and thinking- everything at once. And I just want it all to stop. For at least a minute.

All I need is a minute of peace and quiet.

For as long as I can remember, I have hated silence. I've been going asleep to music since I was a baby. So, it's weird that I'm finally understanding what my mom means when she talks about the quiet. I really need to call her. I need one of her talks right now. She's the only one who can help me process my thoughts anymore. And, I don't know, I've just been thinking a lot about moving to Lincolnton lately. Just going for my senior year to get away from everyone. I can't seem to be decisive about it, though.

None of this seems to be piecing together like I planned. Then again, I didn't exactly plan on writing all of this.

I'll just stop while I'm ahead.

hahah!

I love them :)

You will always be the one my mind comes back to.

No matter how different the lives we lead are or how unstable our friendship is, it will always be you. It's ridiculous to think that it took me up until now to realize all of this, because it's always been there, staring me in the face, practically screaming every time we pass or talk.

But the past is the past. I had my chance and blew it.

I'd be a fool to think you'd ever give another.

Oh, child. I love Nick Jonas.

So, I just got off the phone with Caroline. She called me when the Grammys came on, so we talked for almost five hours. Oh, my god. Haha, that's insane. Anyway, in the midst of us reading each others' thoughts and laughing at the same things for no apparent reason, we've determined the following:

• we're not just sisters, we're actually twins; i was born eight and a half years late.
• we hate beyonce
• we will become best friends with Taylor Swift. Caroline's really good friend, Daniel, is best friends with Taylor's guitarist.
• Dave Matthews is just annoying
• we want to see John Legend in concert
• I'm marrying Nick Jonas and Caroline will be my maid of honor
• Caroline sleeps when she's hungry
• Penny's human voice would be a booming queen voice

We talked about so much random shit, but mostly made fun of all the people at the Grammys, then the people in our family like Patrick and Daddy. We're so alike, it's kind of freaky. Anyway, I'm exhausted. I'm really glad there's no school tomorrow. I can finally clean my room!

When the whispers of "I love you" just don't
taste the same,
will the unfamiliar marks memorializing her chewed-up nails be enough?
Was it even worth it to begin with?
And when it all begins to sink in,
will the same questions race through your mind?
The excitement of skin on skin was there
-at first.
And the sound of clashing hips made the spark,
but we both know the flame won't ignite
with the acidic way her name rolls off your lips.

You ruined this,
so don't you ever think otherwise.