That's it; That is it.
I'm done.
I'm finally putting a stop to this.
I've finally realized that this isn't healthy;
It's only making things worse.
God, you know exactly what to say to make me fall for you over and over again and it's not fair for me to have to go through that when you aren't even here.
No one should be allowed to insert such false hope into someone's mind.
I don't know why or how, but I've finally allowed myself to see through all of your fucking bullshit and you know, it feels amazing.
I'm changing my email address and I'm not going to answer anymore of your calls.
But, nonetheless, it's over.

So, whenever you decide you want to come back into my life,
know that you're not welcome.
And I mean it this time.

Brendon and Jon :(

I was watching Fuse today and the Panic! at the Disco episode of Loaded came on.
I got that nostalgic feel in my chest, but I still watched it.
I think "But It's Better If You Do" is my favorite music video ever.
Maybe.

I'm talking to Dave Melillo on twitter.
No big deal or anything.
(except that I love him and I'm currently freaking out.)

:D

admit it- you laughed.
i had an uncontrollable fit of laughter when i saw this.
that was mostly because i just clicked on something and
BAM! there it was.
hahah, i love nick jonas :)

i have no idea why, but i love this picture.
kevin jonas makes my heart swell :)

Today was kind of frustrating.
My dad took me out to sell ads again up on main street. I went to the five stores I hadn't been to yet- all unsuccessful and back to a store that said they'd call me just to make sure they hadn't forgotten. Turns out, they had forgotten, but the girl I talked to was really nice and said she'd call back before Friday. I have a few more places that said to check back and that's all. I'm hoping for the best, but I'm just not sure how things are going to turn out.
I had a really long phone call (it was split up in two, actually, but that's besides the point) with my mom when I got home. What is it about moms that makes them able to make anything better? Really, it baffles me. I vented to her for maybe fifteen minutes and I felt so much better. She also gives the best advice. I'm really upset that I'm not going to be able to go to Lincolnton before school starts.
After the phone call(s) with madre, I was bored (and stupid, apparently) and decided that "hey! maybe it would be a good idea to finally organize my photobucket!" Seriously, worst idea ever. I had no idea how many pictures were on there. After an hour, I started finding pictures from the two Cute Is What We Aim For concerts I went to last school year and in the two pictures I have with Jeff, he looks exactly the same- completely apathetic. Which is fitting because that's how he seems when you talk to him, too. Obviously, I tweeted about it because I'm just that lame.

bombedreverie: in the midst of trying to organize my photobucket, i found both pictures of the times i've met @jeffislive and he looks really apathetic :(

Then, I just went back to organizing my photobucket. About an hour later, I checked my twitter again and he had replied to me!

jeffislive: @bombedreverie i still have yet to find my "beautiful photo smile face" :( maybe next time???

I know this is really lame, but it made my day better. But mostly because at the concerts I've been to, he never really seems to want to talk to any of the fans or take pictures, so I was really surprised that he replied to it, much less even read it to begin with.

So, awesome- now I've made myself out to look completely lame!
And I'm still not finished with my photobucket. Being the perfectionist I am, I just can't seem to accept the fact that it will never be completely organized.
I'm just going to go watch the Real World and forget that I have things to be stressing out about;
They can wait until Friday.

still, can't help but miss this.
(okay, i'm done with panic posts for today.)

oh, brendon.
(lovelovelove)

how ironic.

i love death cab :)

Have I ever mentioned how much I love them?

beautiful, beautiful boys.

i just got the sweetest phone call ever
from a boy who currently resides in atlanta.
for awhile there, i was starting to regret him.
the past thirty minutes cleared that up, though.
he always knows how to make me feel better.
i'm excited to see him :)

but i can't wait three weeks!
i miss him :(
(he owes me some reese's cups, pronto.)

"would you be friends with me if my name was xander?"
(i always think of that when i see a picture of alex, haha)

these are my grandparents.
hawaii, 1958

i love hugh dancy.
and nick jonas, of course :)

Do you have any idea how unbelievably happy this makes me?
Really, do you? Because I don't even think I know why it does.

bradleycooperbradleycooperbradleycooper

I got back from Virginia yesterday.
It was a good trip, considering the reason I was there.
I got to spend time with my sister and her boyfriend,
who I've known for almost eight years now.

Anyway, I can't believe it's already August.
I start back school in eighteen days, ugh.
It's weird that this summer went by so fast,
because I've been gone so much that I don't even remember summer really starting.
I suppose I'm glad that I'll be getting to see my friends soon.
I haven't really had any time at all to hang out this summer.
And from the looks of it, I won't really have any time to hang out in the remaining three weeks, either.
I also still have to read two books for english and finish selling ads for the yearbook.
It's all stressing me out.

That's really all for now.
I don't think I'm going to end up posting about Philadelphia, either.
Just know that it was probably the best week of my summer.