Half of the time, not having one particular best friend is awesome.
I never feel obligated to hang out with a certain person and I never feel bad for hanging out with other people.
But the other half of the time, I just feel kind of alone.
I never have anyone to tell things to.
Not the the things I actually need to talk about, anyway.
I don't have that one person I can always count on to be there,
and I don't know.
Sometimes it just sucks.

But I don't really like to think about it that much.